Mania

Not now.

Can’t let them see.

Can’t let them hear.

Can’t let them worry.

 

Blink away tears.

Swallow sobs.

Still shaking hands.

Remember to breathe.

 

Crippling sadness replaced.

Anger crashing down.

A bite to the hand.

A jab to the heart.

 

Mind tries to take control

With praise and logic,

But dry clouds rule.

Harsh winds are all I hear.

 

Now the headache.

Enough to remind me.

Calmness forced to surface.

Pool emotion in the head.

 

Another time may come

To release pressure,

Let the mountain fall,

And collapse.

 

But not now.

Not when they can see.

No one can know.

No one can worry.